everything is amazing, nobody is happy

list of happies

happiness is:
-a workshop on scarcity to abundance.
-moving into our new home in a week.
-celebrating spring with friends.
-realizing my potential, as well as my breakdowns.
-honest conversations.
-build-your-own frozen yogurt.
-a landmark education forum for my birthday.
-making progress and building respect at work.
-kissing my kids. repeatedly.
-being in love with a wonderful man.

::six::

six years of marriage + a weekend away in zions =

one happy girl.

::joy is for you::

On this cold winter solstice evening, I wanted to wish you the merriest of holidays. May you have abundant family togetherness, peace, joy, and lots and lots of love.
The Hooligans

list of loves

in need of a good soul scrubbing i am going to bathe myself in gratitude.
taking a cue from a neato blog i love, i too am going to list my top 100 favorite things, in no particular order.
deep breath.
here goes.

1. red painted metal
2. yerba mate
3. curls
4. the beach
5. snow cones
6. brightly colored skirts
7. ballerinas
8. loud drums
9. rust
10. pictures of feet
11. craigslist
12. dancing
13. date nights
14. holiday lights
15. cookbooks
16. lavender
17. co-ops
18. waterfalls
19. airports
20. vintage
21. wooden spoons
22. holding hands
23. vegan chocolate cake
24. thrift stores
25. bamboo knitting needles
26. yoga class
27. massages
28. inside jokes
29. volkswagon vehicles
30. new packs of markers
31. restaurant reviews
32. beads
33. sweater jackets
34. thai food
35. food processors
36. girl power
37. wine
38. drive ins
39. stars
40. hippies
41. the number 5
42. my birthday
43. eyelashes
44. the library
45. public transportation
46. bare feet
47. clothes shopping
48. ballerina flats
49. almonds
50. fig trees
51. holidays
52. book clubs
53. flannel sheets
54. fireplaces
55. dormer windows
56. toys from the 80's
57. modern furniture
58. old houses
59. walking in the city
60. animal adoption fairs
61. hammocks
62. fireworks
63. very large trees
64. russian sage
65. bakeries
66. margaritas
67. outdoor concerts
68. the smell of coffee
69. electric cars
70. birthday parties
71. reading blogs
72. non profit groups
73. photography
74. cooking
75. NPR
76. midwives
77. trade schools
78. zune player
79. soap
80. good lighting
81. irony
82. controlled chaos
83. belly casts
84. oatmeal
85. menus
86. white noise
87. green building
88. pacman
89. wish lists
90. late nights
91. farmers market
92. parks
93. road trips
94. lemonade
95. graffiti
96. whimsy
97. museums
98. my friends
99. my family
100. you

sweet

you know when you have been waiting for a certain moment to happen your whole life?

you know how you have replayed your ideal way the moment should happen over and over in your head including what your reaction will be so many times it almost feels like it has happened?

you know when you see this moment happen to people all around you and feel pangs of jealousy and even anger because your moment hasn't happened yet?

you know when it looks like your moment isn't ever going to happen in your lifetime so you build a strong wall around in your heart to protect your unfulfilled moment so it will no longer be subject to the hurt and denial?

you know when your moment finally does happen and it happens in a way that is entirely different from the way that you made up in you head that you almost miss that it is, in fact, happening right now?

you know when your brain finally catches up to the moment and what is happening that you realize your moment was infinitely sweeter than anything you could have impossibly imagined?

you know when this moment happens and you have a chance to reflect on what happened and you notice that the dam of sadness is no longer held up in your heart and you feel so much lighter without that emotional baggage weighing you down?

i got my moment.

after nearly 9 years of being a couple, 5 of those being married, i finally got a proposal for marriage. i finally got asked the question, will you marry me?

and my moment was sweeter than nectar.
so sweet.

five

There is not a river wide

Not a mountain high

And neither sin nor evil

Could change how I feel inside

Could change how I feel inside

Not all the strength of the ocean

Not all the heat from the sun, from the sun

Now, others have tried, I just can't deny

To me you are the one

To me you are the one

The true love is priceless

For true love you pay a price

But there's nothing can keep me from loving you

Not fire no not ice

Not fire no not ice

Like a hero or a champion

You are the best, you're the best

Like religion or superstition

With you I am blessed

With you I am blessed

Now the river may grow wider

The mountain may reach past the sky

And wether or not you feel same

My love shall never die

My love shall never die

The true love you give and take

The true love is sacrifice

But there's nothing can keep me from loving you

Not fire no not ice

Not fire no not ice

{Ben Harper, Not Fire Not Ice}