sweet

you know when you have been waiting for a certain moment to happen your whole life?

you know how you have replayed your ideal way the moment should happen over and over in your head including what your reaction will be so many times it almost feels like it has happened?

you know when you see this moment happen to people all around you and feel pangs of jealousy and even anger because your moment hasn't happened yet?

you know when it looks like your moment isn't ever going to happen in your lifetime so you build a strong wall around in your heart to protect your unfulfilled moment so it will no longer be subject to the hurt and denial?

you know when your moment finally does happen and it happens in a way that is entirely different from the way that you made up in you head that you almost miss that it is, in fact, happening right now?

you know when your brain finally catches up to the moment and what is happening that you realize your moment was infinitely sweeter than anything you could have impossibly imagined?

you know when this moment happens and you have a chance to reflect on what happened and you notice that the dam of sadness is no longer held up in your heart and you feel so much lighter without that emotional baggage weighing you down?

i got my moment.

after nearly 9 years of being a couple, 5 of those being married, i finally got a proposal for marriage. i finally got asked the question, will you marry me?

and my moment was sweeter than nectar.
so sweet.