in transit

goes to show that i should never, ever sorta promise that i will post anything in a said time frame. totally against my nature. once the promise is made the motivation disintegrates and i am left a pile of unmotivated ooze. lovely thought isn't it?

moving on.....
i am currently in a state of flux. but surprisingly calm considering. chris got layed off his job last friday, and while it came as a total shock at first i have found myself very relieved that this chapter has closed and a new one is beginning. this in between place is pretty alright. i know something fabulous is just around the corner, yet i am really enjoying taking my time getting there. taking deep breaths and appreciating the place i am in right now.

while money is very, very tight right now and that brings stress, it comes no where close to the place we were in a year ago. it's like been there done that, i totally know i can handle a little ol' layoff.

truthfully, i didn't reach this zen-like place until yesterday. up until then i was wiggling all around uncomfortably in this place of void. seriously considering following my gypsy heart and packing up a rv and hitting the road. maybe find myself in mexico working as a housekeeper for a motel on the beach. my inner gypsy likes this idea sooooo very much. she gets all spastic and anxious and just needs to get the hell out of here already!! but yesterday while tucking soleil into bed i was thinking it all over and i experienced a whoosh of clarity. a much more reasonable and thoughtful voice, much unlike my own, entered the panicked place in my head and clearly told me to chill out. to stop wiggling around frantically and just be. everything will work out. it will be more brilliant than ever.

you know what? i listened and obeyed. did i have another choice? my advice is always listen to the voices in your head that seem to know what they are talking about.

know what else? chris had a kick ass interview today for a kick ass job that would give us more money than we've ever had before, plus we would have benefits for the first time in 4 years. hurrah!

you know what else?

that would totally rock.

this space between two doors is a pretty awesome place to be.